Break Homework ..

I found that my list of people who I would invite to my living funeral was a lot easier to make and surprisingly small. I thought about people who I loved, and people who have made a change in my life. I also thought about people who I might've touched or made a difference in their lives. I started off with a big list at first but then I cut a lot of people out. I realized that there are a lot of people who I used to be close to but are no longer of that much importance to me or my life in general. In making a list of people who might invite me to their living funeral, I found that it was much harder then I originally thought it would be. I listed my close family without a doubt but when it came to friends and other people I thought twice about it. I saw how easy it was for me to cross off people on my list who I'm pretty sure would think I would definitely invite them so I didn't want to make the same mistake with them. I found that the list of people who would invite me was overall about the same as the list of people I would invite (the people). I noticed that you can't be too sure about who really likes you and who doesn't. Now a days most people aren't honest about these things so its pretty hard to tell. While making the list I felt really empty in a way. I saw how many close people I've lost (grown distant from) and it kind of makes me sad. Not that I need people surrounding me with love to make me feel secure but idk, I guess it would be nice to have people who mattered to me still close to me.